what do i really want in life?

i haven't been writing for quite awhile. i didn't know how to put my feelings into words anymore as it's beyond discription!

i tend to ask myself, what do i really want in life? do i really enjoy studying? or do i want something more?

i used to dream everyday. happy ending was what i wanted most! i didn't want to grow up until i was forced to face the reality!

what do i really want? can i achieve it with my future profession?









-i want to become an astronomer! An astronomer who travels around the world. i wanna discover new things about the universe! i wanna learn more abt it! i want the extraterrestrial beings to visit planet earth and share with us their technology and knowledge about the universe we lived in.












-i want to be a violinist in an orchestra! i want to be a pianist! i want my fingers to dance on a glass made piano infront of thousand of audience!









-i want to buy shaggy a contrete dog house! i want to buy the best food on earth for her! i wanna have time to bring her out for a walk twice a day! i wanna bring her to the beach to gaze upon the twinkling night sky! i want her to be with me forever!













-i want to own my dream house where i could view the beautiful city lights that fascinate me! it doesn't has to be big, but it must be luxurious!











-i want to go around the world! visit the 7 wonders! The Great Pyramid of Giza! i wanna visit Japan and submerge myself into the warm spring! visit all the famous japanese restraunt there! have all the sushi i wish to consume!












-i want to learn Kendo! i wanna fight like a japanese warrior!










-i want to support my parents financially! i want to buy a farm land for them as my mum enjoys growing her own fruits and vegetables! they can adopt as many innorcent life as they wish!

心臓発作！

と言われることができない秘密!

昨年末から、私は彼と恋に落ちた。しかし、わからない。彼は私と一緒にチャットを始め、私は期待していなかった。彼は私に希望を与えた。しかし、私の心深く、私は知っている、彼は​​私の受け入れることができなかった。それにもかかわらず、過去数カ月間、私たちは、私はとても満足している、電話のメッセージを渡されます。しかし、私はこれは一時的な幸福されていることを知っている。ある日、私は代金を支払わなければならない！

この日は、最後に到着している
彼は深い傷を残した！これは非常に痛いです！は神が決める。彼は記事を見ることができれば、それを理解し、神は、私は彼を告白します！彼はこの記事を見つけていない場合は、私が非表示にするよ！
このように、私はそれを後悔しないように。



未来の僕には、

彼はこれを読み取ることができない場合、あなたは私を責めることはできない。ので、それは神の決定を受けている！

A scar that never fade

it doesn't matter how deep is the wound, it will still heal. hope that the left over scar will always remind me not to repeat the history.

my dream house

my roof top pool



my roof top mini bar





my bath room



my balcony

my living room

my kitchen

my bedroom

Life after stpm

many things happened throughout the year, I think It would be better for me to write in details when the right mood comes.

As for now, allow me to fill this dusty old blog by gluing words into sentences! I was offered a job by my auntie. It's the easiest job ever. I'm supposed to deliver house cleaning maids to the customer's house. And it gave me plenty of free time while waiting for them to complete their tasks. This allows me to listen to lectures at youtube. Apart from that, I am told to eat whatever I want. I am served with plenty of mouth watering home cooked dishes every noon! Though there aren’t any desserts but junk foods, nicely cut fruits and drinks were served right in front of the computer desk! Countless circular disk are placed right beside the television screen, ready to be spin in the DVD player.

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