I’ve never score well in exams! Especially when it comes to stpm! Sometimes I wonder, why can’t I score? I came to realize that I failed to understand the questions! I don’t know what they want as an answer! or more precisely, what do they mean! (mostly in chemistry!) Failed to understand the question equals to fail to answer them! And failing to answer them equals to not being able to score well!
I don’t know! I really don’t know! It’s bothering me! Maybe I didn’t work hard enough! Maybe I’ve been taking things too easily! Maybe I have not done enough exercises! Or Maybe I just don’t have the brains! Could these be the answers to all my doubts?
Come to think of it, I’ve met people who could score well easily! These people could give an astonishing amount of output with just a little input! As for me, I required a tremendous amount of input for an extremely small amount of output! I act more like a step down transformer! Hate it! Hate it thought! This isn’t fair!
With all these thoughts swimming in my head, I started to worry. I fear that I’ll not do well in my degree! Honestly, the thing I fear the most (now) is that I failed to get a place in University Malaya! I fear that I’ll not get the course I desired the most, Physics! I can’t imagine what would it be like if I don’t get what I want!
I could see my childhood dreams fading away. My ambition vanished! Then, heavy grey clouds filled the empty path. And my future turns grey. Lightnings strike across the darken path. Thunder started to storm. Tiny droplets begin to fall. My life became meaningless. No dreams. No ambition. No direction.
As a result, I’ve ought to do well in stpm! If I’ve failed, I’m as good as dead! If I’ve succeeded, my dreams could be achieved.
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