i'm tired!

few weeks back, the pain was burning furiously in the chambers of my pumping heart! tears filled my eyes socket within seconds! and the only thing i realised in the next moment was my tear, dripping onto my already stretched hand that was controling the car steering! it was, no doubt one of the painfullest experience i'd had!


from then onwards, i deliberately told myself not to be emotional! i told myself to control my tears when it strikes again! i told myself to be strong! i told myself to stay away from it!


and for the past few days, i thought i've suceeded in transforming my warm blooded heart into a metal cold blood pumping mechine! i thought nothing could bring me down again! i thought it was over, and that i'm free! but little did i realised that it never left! it was just hidden at a dark corner where i couldn't find.


Once again, that pathatic feelings appear out of nowhere! although i've managed to cotrol my tears this time, but i've failed to prevent my throat from drying up quickly! i couldn't speak!


it just never stop hunting me! and unintendedly, i keep finding out new things that have nearly ripped my heart apart!
i'm tired of it already! i'm tired of being too snesitive! i'm tired for taking things too seriously! i'm tired of being nice to people who never care to do the same to me! i'm tired of waiting! i'm tired! really tired!