it's almost 2 months since my return from Toronto~ i wonder how my life would be like if i didnt left~
i could still remember vividly how excited i was to get there and how vy desperate was i to get home~

it's not something one could easily let go~ or maybe, just me.... maybe, i didnt wanna let go... it was my everything...... and i've ruined it myself...how could i possibly forgive myself for such a foolish and immature act?

"no one understands me?"  haha~ it's funny how i nvr fancy using that sentence~ it makes a person sounds rather self centered...lonely and irritating~ why would anyone wanna understand you? who do you think you are? this is a hush world, no one's supposed to care for you~ you yourself's supposed to be strong~ no one wants to hear your pathetic story ~ stop bagging for symphaty~

no one's suppose to motivate you~ you're supposed to be self-motivated~ feel depressed and hopeless? step out of that awful feeling yourself~ be a leader~ act like a leader~ instead of asking from others, give it to them~ a leader live by adding values to people around them~ let go of the past~ tomorrow is a new beginning~ start off right and do what you must~ believe in yourself~ believe in those who have walk through this path~ believe is a dim light that can guild you towards the end of a tunnel~ remember, when no one is there to motivate you, be there to motivate yourself~
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