A brief history of time

“We go about our daily lives understanding almost nothing of the world. We give little thought to the machinery that generates the sunlight that makes life possible, to the gravity that glues us to an Earth that would otherwise send us spinning off into space, or to the atoms of which we are made and on whose stability we fundamentally depend. Except for children (who don’t know enough not to ask the important questions), few of us spend much time wondering why nature is the way it is; where the cosmos came from, or whether it was always here; if time will one day flow backward and effects precede causes; or whether there are ultimate limits to what humans can know.”

It's ganna be a terrible day!

Tomorrow's going to be a terrible day! I'll be receiving atleast an exam paper filled with red crosses! Damn! I have no one to blame but myself! I was or perhaps am such a fool to underestimate the difficulty of mathematic 2's questions! Arrg! Of all days, why did it has to be tomorrow! Don't feel like attending school tomorrow!

4 months before the arrival of STPM!

I’ve never score well in exams! Especially when it comes to stpm! Sometimes I wonder, why can’t I score? I came to realize that I failed to understand the questions! I don’t know what they want as an answer! or more precisely, what do they mean! (mostly in chemistry!) Failed to understand the question equals to fail to answer them! And failing to answer them equals to not being able to score well!

I don’t know! I really don’t know! It’s bothering me! Maybe I didn’t work hard enough! Maybe I’ve been taking things too easily! Maybe I have not done enough exercises! Or Maybe I just don’t have the brains! Could these be the answers to all my doubts?

Come to think of it, I’ve met people who could score well easily! These people could give an astonishing amount of output with just a little input! As for me, I required a tremendous amount of input for an extremely small amount of output! I act more like a step down transformer! Hate it! Hate it thought! This isn’t fair!

With all these thoughts swimming in my head, I started to worry. I fear that I’ll not do well in my degree! Honestly, the thing I fear the most (now) is that I failed to get a place in University Malaya! I fear that I’ll not get the course I desired the most, Physics! I can’t imagine what would it be like if I don’t get what I want!

I could see my childhood dreams fading away. My ambition vanished! Then, heavy grey clouds filled the empty path. And my future turns grey. Lightnings strike across the darken path. Thunder started to storm. Tiny droplets begin to fall. My life became meaningless. No dreams. No ambition. No direction.

As a result, I’ve ought to do well in stpm! If I’ve failed, I’m as good as dead! If I’ve succeeded, my dreams could be achieved.