夢飛行 鄭欣宜

the time i enjoyed most--associate with people in my second family!

the end!

it's been awhile and i'm pretty sure that i've already escaped the torturing chamber! no more pain! no more feelings! and, of course, no more second time! i'll never trust anyone again!

我是真的醒了！

几个星期前，我就像那痛苦的杨千嬅 ，每天对上帝说， “我不想再这样下去！你放过我！你杀了我吧！！！”

如今，我以彻底的放下了！愚蠢了几个月的我终于醒了！ 就如开场与结局的那一目，那愚蠢的睿之已经死了！我终于醒了！我是真的醒了！

recent update!

Recently, i've been reading many people's blog! and realised they offen update their blogs! that's why i began to reupdate mine as well...... i thought i'd already recovered from sorethroat, but i was wrong!..............................

[HD] 让我爱你一小时MV-林峰 Raymond lam

i'm tired!

few weeks back, the pain was burning furiously in the chambers of my pumping heart! tears filled my eyes socket within seconds! and the only thing i realised in the next moment was my tear, dripping onto my already stretched hand that was controling the car steering! it was, no doubt one of the painfullest experience i'd had!


from then onwards, i deliberately told myself not to be emotional! i told myself to control my tears when it strikes again! i told myself to be strong! i told myself to stay away from it!


and for the past few days, i thought i've suceeded in transforming my warm blooded heart into a metal cold blood pumping mechine! i thought nothing could bring me down again! i thought it was over, and that i'm free! but little did i realised that it never left! it was just hidden at a dark corner where i couldn't find.


Once again, that pathatic feelings appear out of nowhere! although i've managed to cotrol my tears this time, but i've failed to prevent my throat from drying up quickly! i couldn't speak!


it just never stop hunting me! and unintendedly, i keep finding out new things that have nearly ripped my heart apart!
i'm tired of it already! i'm tired of being too snesitive! i'm tired for taking things too seriously! i'm tired of being nice to people who never care to do the same to me! i'm tired of waiting! i'm tired! really tired!

what do i really want in life?

i haven't been writing for quite awhile. i didn't know how to put my feelings into words anymore as it's beyond discription!

i tend to ask myself, what do i really want in life? do i really enjoy studying? or do i want something more?

i used to dream everyday. happy ending was what i wanted most! i didn't want to grow up until i was forced to face the reality!

what do i really want? can i achieve it with my future profession?









-i want to become an astronomer! An astronomer who travels around the world. i wanna discover new things about the universe! i wanna learn more abt it! i want the extraterrestrial beings to visit planet earth and share with us their technology and knowledge about the universe we lived in.












-i want to be a violinist in an orchestra! i want to be a pianist! i want my fingers to dance on a glass made piano infront of thousand of audience!









-i want to buy shaggy a contrete dog house! i want to buy the best food on earth for her! i wanna have time to bring her out for a walk twice a day! i wanna bring her to the beach to gaze upon the twinkling night sky! i want her to be with me forever!













-i want to own my dream house where i could view the beautiful city lights that fascinate me! it doesn't has to be big, but it must be luxurious!











-i want to go around the world! visit the 7 wonders! The Great Pyramid of Giza! i wanna visit Japan and submerge myself into the warm spring! visit all the famous japanese restraunt there! have all the sushi i wish to consume!












-i want to learn Kendo! i wanna fight like a japanese warrior!










-i want to support my parents financially! i want to buy a farm land for them as my mum enjoys growing her own fruits and vegetables! they can adopt as many innorcent life as they wish!